Sisters

This particular person in my life reminds me of my past struggles and stories from time to time. I don't mean she repeats my mistakes or anything bad. Nevertheless it's clear that she's in the daunting situations i have been through. Yet, I am not here to advice wisely, because if on those bygone days, some 'wise' people have suggested 100 ways to make better decisions, the wisdoms would remain to be theirs instead of passing to be mine (please do not doubt my gained wisdoms.)

However, it is not a negative thing to think from various perspectives. When I quitted my dream of being an anchor (still think TVee is suffering a loss of not having me as anchor) and embrace Hotel Management, a major that I had not seriously considered, I really had a mixed feeling. Perhaps it sounds stupid, because IT WAS SO FREAKING OBVIOUS that i should have feel completely devastated. I did not. I just thought i could have done the exam better by cutting the laughters during study weeks with xbf. But i didnt feel regretful (well, don't ask me abt my regretful feeling now). I just thought, i could do HMG because I didn't like it, and I would get back to Communication School for master if i was THAT into it. So here I am, sitting in a hotel building working here. Still considering anchor being my lost dream, but I reckon I could go back to that path whenever I want  to. Yet it's a lost dream, L-O-S-T. Life brings us surprises no? I would not have thought that I am living a life like this when I was 18. Is it a big problem? To the 18 year old me, for sure it is haunting, but having gained all the wisdom and blahblahblah, I just think, this is not too bad (could be better). I am at this point that, I definitely know myself, and keep learning more about myself every day, I remind myself what do I and don't I want. Keep diving into new obsessions and quitting things I no longer need to keep me happy. So I happily announce, my quarter-life crisis is officially over.

About finding somebody who likes you. Big sister's experience is, do not care. Do not even care if you love yourself, because it's unresolvable. Just do things making you happy and feel equipped, then you're the person who couldn't resist loving yourself (i'm still working on it). And one day prince charming (or a frog) would love you for some mysterious reasons that you could not point out. It really works like this. Always be polite even you don't care though, haha just saying. Do not find anyone, do not even sneakily hoping to find anyone, then someone would show up. This works really weirdly.

Last idea of the day: always listen to your sister, heeheee. Why..? Because with her, you're always safe...ho chi hai HEHEHEHEHE. (seriously, i m so aware of all situations!)

Sleepy Ms Giggles is going to sleep...... A bien tot!