Sisters

This particular person in my life reminds me of my past struggles and stories from time to time. I don't mean she repeats my mistakes or anything bad. Nevertheless it's clear that she's in the daunting situations i have been through. Yet, I am not here to advice wisely, because if on those bygone days, some 'wise' people have suggested 100 ways to make better decisions, the wisdoms would remain to be theirs instead of passing to be mine (please do not doubt my gained wisdoms.)

However, it is not a negative thing to think from various perspectives. When I quitted my dream of being an anchor (still think TVee is suffering a loss of not having me as anchor) and embrace Hotel Management, a major that I had not seriously considered, I really had a mixed feeling. Perhaps it sounds stupid, because IT WAS SO FREAKING OBVIOUS that i should have feel completely devastated. I did not. I just thought i could have done the exam better by cutting the laughters during study weeks with xbf. But i didnt feel regretful (well, don't ask me abt my regretful feeling now). I just thought, i could do HMG because I didn't like it, and I would get back to Communication School for master if i was THAT into it. So here I am, sitting in a hotel building working here. Still considering anchor being my lost dream, but I reckon I could go back to that path whenever I want  to. Yet it's a lost dream, L-O-S-T. Life brings us surprises no? I would not have thought that I am living a life like this when I was 18. Is it a big problem? To the 18 year old me, for sure it is haunting, but having gained all the wisdom and blahblahblah, I just think, this is not too bad (could be better). I am at this point that, I definitely know myself, and keep learning more about myself every day, I remind myself what do I and don't I want. Keep diving into new obsessions and quitting things I no longer need to keep me happy. So I happily announce, my quarter-life crisis is officially over.

About finding somebody who likes you. Big sister's experience is, do not care. Do not even care if you love yourself, because it's unresolvable. Just do things making you happy and feel equipped, then you're the person who couldn't resist loving yourself (i'm still working on it). And one day prince charming (or a frog) would love you for some mysterious reasons that you could not point out. It really works like this. Always be polite even you don't care though, haha just saying. Do not find anyone, do not even sneakily hoping to find anyone, then someone would show up. This works really weirdly.

Last idea of the day: always listen to your sister, heeheee. Why..? Because with her, you're always safe...ho chi hai HEHEHEHEHE. (seriously, i m so aware of all situations!)

Sleepy Ms Giggles is going to sleep...... A bien tot!

離開

上次心姐要我聽麥浚龍的念念不忘。當下立即想起那個痴線哥哥，再下一秒，我想起拍拖了頗久的你。

記得我們第一次鬧分手，你說：「分開的話，我希望我們都和不適合的人一起，那最後我們就會回到一起了。最怕是一個人找到對的人、一個人找不到……」

他大概也想不起講過這樣的話了吧？今天我們都恍如和當時的自己沒有絲毫相同了。就是這樣的，當兩個人不再往來，說話的話、許過的諾都再無關緊要了。然而我們處在這個只靠著FACEBOOK WTSAPP維繫關係的世代，跟諾言絕對來往根本不費吹灰之力。

也不想再提答應過的那些事沒有實現。離開不該打擾前度愛人，很對。但至少至少，我現在很幸福，得悉你也安好，心中的小太陽花也展愛笑靨了。今天想當年，多少的事做得不對才導致我倆都離開已經不值一哂了，好像只剩下美好的在心田沈澱滋養著現在的愛情。

而念念不忘的我們之間有過的，不帶感受的。一切都成HISTORY，彷彿是HIS STORY，既不是你的，也不是我的。