Saturday, 7 June 2025

新生活

重回這裡這件事是有點大癲的。

數周前,樂小姐跟我說:「TA姐我仲有你以前網誌的連結。」也不知為何她突然想起這件事。
「什麼網誌?」我不明所以,還敢自稱記憶之鬼。

她給我發過來以後,我讀了一些,感覺有點害羞,但有點好笑。

懷著好奇心,我試了幾次後成功登入了。


MLA歌詞說過「回憶很奇怪 唯有兩個人同時記得回憶才是真實。」但看著自己過往的經歷猶如別人的故事,或許情感仍在,但場景除了一些碎片已無從憾起。言即過往的我記得,但當下的我不記得,那發生過的還是真實嗎?但真實與否也不是那樣重要了。事實是,我們都往前走了。

最後一次更新是2018年5月,剛交碩士論文。那年心情不好。
論文很趕,交完還找了好久工作,長期在高壓的情緒中。

現在心情也不好。
我驚覺自己並沒有成為自己很喜歡的人。很常有無力感。是非對錯有點模糊。對於下一步已有點猶豫不決。

明明就應該已經長大了,應該要執行自己要的現實易對啊。


Hello Thesis


21/05/2018

So as you can see (well actually I am the only reader of my blog so), I HANDED IN MY THESIS! On 8th May, after several sleepless nights, I handed in my thesis without much proof-reading. It was simply impossible as I only finished on the due day. From what I heard from other people, this is kind of a rare practice and I jeopardized my chance to graduate - but what could I do when it was the due day?

As I wrote in March, my life SUCKS in 2018. Well at least it sucked. Things have showed much improvement in the previous 2 weeks after I turned in my study. From now on, I have less than a month to prepare my oral exam. This is a system I learnt to be quite common in German speaking country - in 60 minutes, a panel of 3 professors/ lecturers ask anything you're